i realized today how much i'm thankful to be alive.

i take life for granted, but that doesn't mean i don't realize what a gift it is.

i'm not an outdoorsy person, but sometimes i just like to look at the trees swaying in the wind and appreciate the beauty of the world.

it's kind of like the scene in american beauty where they're watching the video of the paper bag blowing back and forth in the wind. sometimes i watch something random that i usually wouldn't notice, and i think of that music, and i just feel really happy.

i mostly experience this when i'm with xandie, usually when we're doing nothing but looking at each other, and i feel so happy i don't think i can go any higher. it's like the opposite of hitting bottom.

nico said i'm a pussy when i'm with xandie. he was probably joking, but if what i feel when i'm with xandie is being a pussy, then i'll take that over not being a pussy any day of the week.

song of the post: seal - kiss from a rose